Magpagaling ka muna bago ka tumingin sa kita.
I think these statements made my whole day for my Day 1 at CVAP workshop. I have been watching documentaries about voice acting and I learned that there is really a potential of a good income in this industry. But I’m not an eye income person…before. If I was not a business graduate, I think my mindset would be like a starving artist. I love engaging with the world. I don’t have prior dreams before that vision but then everything changes when you have a need. You look at things differently and there are times I am getting frustrated in dreaming of having and achieving this and that. I am grateful for what I have but I wake up and there is this feeling of wanting to get out. And it’s not just somewhere you go to and the feeling will go away. It’s as if you are living in a cage. It’s a cage where birds want to fly and soar but can’t because the bird was so used to flying in that space, in that capacity that she forgot that there’s a gate opened.
And it’s not just somewhere you go to and the feeling will go away. It’s as if you are living in a cage.
So as I engage with this workshop, so many things were said but I was reminded of one statement, “Magpagaling ka muna bago ka tumingin sa kita.” This struck me so much. Amid a quarter life crisis, I expect myself to be good at anything and keep up with people that in the process, I forgot my pure intentions. I was reminded of why I want this. Why I have this talent. Why I want to do this. And it’s not about the income. It’s a passion. It’s because I saw myself in a car listening to the radio hearing my voice and just enjoying it. It’s because I just so love to express myself, to entertain, to be excellent in my craft, and to make people happy. It is genuinely because I want to engage again with the world through my voice. People always want to gain something but forgot that for us to gain, we must toil and make the work. We forgot to be genuinely excellent in our craft because in this pressuring 20s, people expect us to be someone. But to be someone is to be good. And to be an effective authority, you must have competence.
I just so love to express myself, to entertain, to be excellent in my craft, and to make people happy. It is genuinely because I want to engage again with the world through my voice.
At the end of the day, in terms of technicalities of the workshop, there are still a lot to improve on but the main goal of mind setting was successful in my part. The real talk session with Sir Pocholo opened my eyes again. The word “art” was like a new thirsting word for me. It’s like a longtime friend I was not able to hear about or see again for so many years and I am excited to have a catch up and build my relationship one more time. This time, I don’t want it to be a longtime low maintenance kind of friendship. I want this artistry to be with me again, to spend time again and just enjoy the process and the outcome. I was reminded again that I’m an artist. But more than artist, I believe I am a heartist. Because in every art, it is my heart speaking. It is my heart entertaining. It is my heart serving.
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